This post is excerpted from Simple Acts of Moving Forward.
Do you ever feel like this? I know that I should just deal with this thing that’s causing me to lose sleep. I know what I have to do, but I’m just not ready for the stress. But this thing won’t go away. I’m in knots from the minute I wake up in the morning.
Fear and dread are great cripplers of the spirit. I have been stopped cold by each of them on numerous occasions. They have prevented me from doing what I was called to do. They have kept me from growing my gifts and my character. They have held me back in so many ways.
When you finally face the thing you fear or dread, it automatically becomes a smaller monster. The huge project becomes a series of smaller projects that you can actually do if you take them one at a time. The conversation you were sure would blow up in your face actually goes all right, and even if it doesn’t, you vent or cry when it’s over and then move on.
Whenever you experience inner resistance, there is a reason behind it. Maybe you’ve taken on more than you can manage. Maybe you must learn something, and you’re not sure you can. Maybe you’ve placed very high stakes on this one thing, higher stakes than it deserves. Maybe you simply haven’t thought through the consequences and so you have no plan and no back-up plan.
It’s time to sit with yourself and ask, What am I so afraid of? What first step can I take to break free of this fear? What help from others do I need? Why is this so critical to my self-esteem?—and many other questions. It’s time to face the person in you who is trying to run the opposite direction, to study the look on his face and figure out what all the fuss is about.
Take some time right now and have that conversation.
A Little Prayer for the Next Step
I need help. I need the wisdom to unpack this bag of fear and dread. Help me figure out what I am afraid of. Help me feel safe as I face that fear. I’m tired of not moving forward because of this stupid roadblock that’s inside me. Give me the courage to learn the truth and go on from there.
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